Commit your way to the LORD, Trust also in Him, And He shall bring it to pass. He shall bring forth your righteousness as the light, And your justice as the noonday. -Psalms‬ ‭37‬:‭5-6‬ (NKJV)

As the deer pants for streams of water, so my soul pants for you, my God. -Psalm 42:1 (NIV)

How great is the love the Father has lavished on us, that we should be called children of God! -1 John 3:1 (NIV)

Fellow agent, another page from my testimony, which I hope inspires you:

I thirst for the Lord. I can’t go too long without replenishing in His living water. I get feverish if I’m away too long. It’s an irresistible drive.

All my life, I could never figure out my purpose for being here. I could tell I had a relentless drive when I found something I liked and was like a fire-and-forget missile that would reach my target at any cost. The problem was, before I could reach my target, I could see it wasn’t worth pursuing, and fizzle out. And so I’d keep on looking for something else, aimless and unguided until the next false positive.

Once the Lord woke me up, He soon made my purpose clear: Win the lost and make Him known through ministry. But there were changes I had to make in my life, truths He cast His searing light on, that had to be faced.

I’ve been labeled obsessive, dramatic, stubborn, extreme, fiery, and overly passionate about what I would latch on to. I didn’t know how to do something halfway. I’d be so excited and animated about something that, just by talking about it, others would be interested.

God said, “Pursue Me.”

And then, God woke me up again. The ultimate target I’d been searching for my whole life was all around me, and with me the whole time. A target of immeasurable worth: To make my life a sweet-smelling sacrifice to Him was the target. And what better combination of super-focused, God-given personality attributes could serve such a need? 🙂

Sometimes I feel like I have an invisible aura of fire all around me, reflecting the ferocity of the Spirit in me to testify and to seek and identify ministry opportunities in even the most seemingly mundane situations.

O Lord, how great thou art!!! You’ve given me the greatest gift I can give: To give my all for you, who gave your son for me before I was ever born!

And while I endure the toughest battles of my life as I write this, I can see how He wants me to chronicle it here as He carries me on this long, arduous, and glorious climb. With each crushing spiritual attack that levels me, He raises me up, stronger than before. I learn and heal. Over and over…stronger and stronger each time. My perspective is forever increasing its focus on Him, and forever decreasing on me. I am so honored to be His instrument of ministry.

And so, fellow agent, here we are. That is how my heart beats. He gave us hearts to beat loudly for Him. He gave us talents to make our hearts’ focus—our God—known in unique ways.

And He gave us an unquenchable thirst and longing that only He can fulfill. We must go all out in relentless pursuit of the One who pursued us first in His infinite love. Don’t live a life compromised to Him. That’s not living for Him. Go all in. Let us press ever onward and upward, blazing His blinding light as a beacon so that others may follow. Let’s be relentless for the Lord.

Today’s soundtrack

I have to include two songs today for how strongly I’ve been struck with what I shared above.

Third Day’s “Soul on Fire” tells the Lord how we run the race to Him:

Sidewalk Prophet’s “Live Like That” is the song that encapsulates the drive to live with reckless abandon for the Lord. Don’t want to live like that…LIVE LIKE THAT. How else is there to live?